Tuesday, October 22, 2024
Des Moines Marathon race recap
Tuesday, April 16, 2024
Zion Ultras 50K
Way back in November, the gang started making plans to do the Zion Ultras in Utah. We had people at the 100K, 50K, and half-marathon distances. We made all the travel plans and started training. At the time, it seemed so far off; when the weekend finally arrived, it seemed almost unreal.
The five of us who were signed up for the 50K, Nate, Tim, Myung, Mikki, and I, lined up at the start on Sunday morning. Karri had finished the 100K in the night with Carrie pacing her the last twenty miles, and Amber, Theresa, and Josh were set to do the half-marathon an hour after us. With Amber, Theresa, and Josh cheering us on, we took off:
The first six miles were on dirt roads that we'd done a shakeout on a couple of days prior. Myung, Mikki, and I pretty much stuck together during this portion, and we were feeling pretty good. After the first aid station, we headed into Gooseberry Mesa still together. Here the terrain became very rocky and technical, which I tend to be more cautious on, so I fell back a bit.
The trail was marked by white dots and pink flags, and sometimes it was hard to tell where you were going. For example, at one point, I saw a pink flag on a rock and took it to mean that you were supposed to go around the base of the rock, but when I started doing so, there was no trail there. Someone told me I was supposed to go OVER the rock. Okay then! The following things happened in no particular order:
1) I started up a hill that was an out-and-back and crossed paths, first, with a woman who was breathing quickly, almost like she was hyperventilating. Someone asked her if she was okay, and she said yes. Then I crossed paths with Myung, who said something like, "It's scary up there, Molly." It was, in fact, very high with a steep drop. A lot of people were stopping to take pictures, but I didn't even want to mess with my phone, so I headed back down.
2) At a couple of points, I had to use my hands to help myself over rocks, and at one point my knees were down on a rock, too. I had debated the "shorts vs. capris" question the night before, and I was glad that I had chosen capris so that my bare knees weren't down on the rock.
3) I came upon a permanent trail marker that said something like, "Difficulty level: Extreme," and a guy running near me said something like, "As opposed to what we've been doing already, which has been a walk in the park?"
4) A couple running together asked me what mileage I had on my watch. I said 13.8. They said they had the same, and asked if I'd seen an aid station; they said there was supposed to be one at (I think) 12.7. Then I ran into another girl who said that she was pretty sure there wasn't another aid station until mile 17-point-something. It turned out it was somewhere between 14 and 15. I used the port-a-potty, filled my water bottles, grabbed part of a turkey sandwich, and headed back out.
I continued on Gooseberry Mesa and had thoughts like, "Is the whole race going to be like this?," and "Holy crap, how long am I going to be out here?" The terrain made for slow moving. Then I hit another aid station that took you back out to the dirt road. There, I could finally get moving at a decent pace, and I started picking people off again (A LOT of people passed me on the mesa). I wondered how far ahead Myung and Mikki were. There was a crossroads where you turned left, and that's where Josh, Theresa, Amber, Karri, and everyone (those who had done other distances or were there to pace or watch) were cheering. Amber ran out to me with a bag of food and asked what I needed. I said I was good and took the left turn. I continued to pick people off and started crossing paths on an out-and-back with people who were heading to the finish, including Nate.
I headed into Grafton Mesa. At the aid station there, a volunteer told me that I would do a 5-point-something-mile-loop, come back, and then head back on the dirt toward the finish. On the loop, I crossed paths with Mikki, who was somehow behind me now (she later said I had passed her at the aid station going in and hadn't seen her). Also on the loop, things got technical again. I had to use my hands a couple more times to pull myself up. Also, at one point, some sort of spiky plant got caught on my capris, I cried out, and the dude behind me pulled whatever it was out for me. There was a HUGE hill at one point, and I said aloud, "You have got to be kidding me." Whatever mileage the volunteer had said it was, my watch had it at more than that, and as my water dwindled, I started thinking things like, "How much further?" and "I want to be done with this."
Finally I made it back to the aid station. I caught a glimpse of Myung just leaving, but I badly needed to fill my water bottles, so I didn't try to catch up to her. I headed back out to the road and started on the final dirt stretch to the finish. The course took us again past the crossroads where you had turned to go towards Grafton Mesa, and where you headed towards the finish. The gang was still there cheering and going crazy, which gave me a boost. Also, there was a dude in a grim reaper costume stopping anyone who still had to go to Grafton Mesa; they had missed the cutoff and would be "reaped" from the course. But for those of us who just had to go to the finish, he high fived us, so that was something, being high fived by the grim reaper. I headed toward the finish. Amber and Karri were there to cheer and take pictures. Myung had finished about five minutes ahead of me, and Mikki finished about five minutes after, so we were all really close despite having separated. We all took some group pictures and headed back to the Air B&B.
So, it was by far the most challenging course I've ever done and probably ever will do. Though time goals went out the window pretty early on due to the terrain, and though there were times I was cursing the heavens, I, as a whole, felt good-- no injuries, no feelings of nausea, etc. Two days later, I am back in Omaha, still tired and sore, but as a whole feeling pretty good. Though I at one point thought to myself, "a half-marathon would have been plenty on this terrain," I'm glad I did it. As always, shout out to the awesome running crew from Omaha, who also kicked ass at their goals over the weekend. We have the best group ever.
Sunday, January 21, 2024
thoughts on the Mean Girls movie musical
So I've been out of high school for more than twenty-five years at this point, and sometimes I will watch a teen movie or show and think, "Were kids in high school that mean? I don't remember them being that mean." Then this person or that will come up in conversation and I will find myself saying, "No one was nice to them. I know I definitely wasn't," or I'll think back to a time when a bunch of us got really carried away talking about someone behind their back and I'll realize, "I didn't even dislike that person. I just let myself get caught up in it." So the point is, no, high school kids are maybe not as overtly mean as they are on something like Glee or Cobra Kai, but I think the social dynamics are such that it sometimes seems better to join in, even on mean behavior, rather than be the one on the outside.
Monday, October 2, 2023
Monument Marathon Race Recap
As those of you who read this blog know, I ran the Monument Half-Marathon last year and decided to come back this year for the full. Though I knew from the half that the course would be challenging and that I should manage my expectations when it came to time goals, as the days approached, I found myself printing a 4:30:00 pace bracelet off the Internet just in case. I had a 4:35:00 pace bracelet the day that I set my PR of 4:30:54 at Grandma's Marathon in 2022, and it helped to be able to just glance down and see where I was at in terms of time. (Pace bracelets tell you not just what your pace per mile should be, but what time you should be at each mile, so you don't have to try to do math in your head in the middle of everything). I figured the bracelet would just give me something to shoot for in terms of time, and if I didn't make it, fine, but at least I had a goal pace in mind.
On the Thursday before the race, I sent Carrie N. a Facebook message that said, "Now is the time pre-marathon where I start overanalyzing stats and having thoughts like, 'This race will be about the same temp as Grandma's, but it will be hillier. But there will be no humidity. But...'" This only got worse in the next couple of days. I am prone to anxiety dreams, and the night before the race, I had one about work, of all things. When I woke up, the first thing I thought was, "Oh! You weren't feeling well at Grandma's this year! You thought you were catching a cold! You're feeling better today!" I kept finding reasons to be optimistic.
My parents dropped me off at Five Rocks Ampitheatre on race morning to catch the shuttle to the Wildcat Hills. It was really foggy, and as we approached our destination, the shuttle driver said something like, "Thank you for coming! I hope the fog lifts and you get to experience some of our natural beauty out here!" When we got off the bus, volunteers were there to greet us with a table all set up with water and food. They welcomed us and told us we could go inside, where we would find bathrooms and places to sit down. In line for the restroom, I struck up a conversation with a woman wearing a Grandma's Marathon sweatshirt. Then several of us went upstairs to an open room with chairs all around the perimeter. Someone joked, "Are we the elites, or what?!" I saw another woman with an Indianapolis Monumental Marathon cap, and I went over to tell her I'd done that one, too. "I used to live in Evansville!" I added. She gave me a blank look at the mention of Evansville. It turned out that she was from California and trying to run a marathon in all fifty states; Nebraska was actually her last. I realized that though it was a small race (I later learned that around eighty people had started the Full, with seventy-six finishing), a lot of people were from out of state. Some were from neighboring states like Colorado and Wyoming, but I also talked to people from, or overheard people mention, Pennsylvania, New York, and Montana. Some, like the woman from California, were working towards all fifty states and using this as their Nebraska race.
We went outside to line up. The race benefits Western Nebraska Community College scholarships, and members of the basketball team were lined up with pace signs to show us where to line up. Someone jokingly said to one of them, "You're going to be pacing us, right?" The basketball player gave him a look of utter panic and horror. The guy asking laughed, all, "You're like, 'I was just told I would be holding a sign."
We took off. I'd been warned beforehand not to go too fast down the hill. I did okay. I was a little faster than goal pace, but not terribly so. One lane of the four-lane road was closed for us runners. The basketball players passed us in their cars, cheering. For the first ten-eleven miles, there were a few runners that I went back and forth with consistently, including an older man who was run-walking. I would pass him when he walked, and he would pass me when he ran. My parents were at a few different stations cheering me on. By the halfway point, I was a little off of my 4:30:00 goal pace, but not bad.
Though elevation started to gradually climb at mile twelve. Miles fourteen-sixteen had the steepest elevation gain. I'd had to go to the bathroom for awhile at that point, and I kept bribing myself, like, "After you get up the hill, you can stop at a port-a-potty. No, after you pass these two people, you can stop at a port-a-potty." This resulted in me accidentally, almost comically bursting out of the port-a-potty just as the two people I'd previously passed came by. I left them behind for good at mile eighteen or nineteen, I think, just after we entered the dirt road to the back side of the Monument.
The next stretch was rough. Though last year, running the half, I was amazed at how beautiful it was behind the Monument, coming up so late in the race, I couldn't really appreciate it. It was also at that point that us runners really spread out. After I passed the two people at the backside of the Monument, I I swear to God, I passed no one else, and no one else passed me. I had slowed down way off goal pace at that point, and it didn't really help that there was no one close to catch, or who was close enough to catch me. That part was really mentally hard.
Not long before the end of the stretch behind the Monument, there was a great Barbie-themed aid station. They called it the Mojo Dojo Casa Aid Station, and everyone was wearing costumes and calling out things like, "Great job, Barbie!" That perked me up a little. Finally, I reached the part of the race where I was back in town. With all of the runners spread out like we were, the people at the aid stations would get really excited when one of us approached. Some girls made a tunnel for me to run through at one point. My parents showed up at two more aid stations.
So I'll do these little mental tricks when I run, like, at mile 23, instead of saying to myself, "You only have a little more than three miles to go!," I will say, "You've got less than four miles to go!," so that way it seems like a treat when it's actually MUCH less than four miles. This caused me to momentarily panic, however, because I had a moment where I thought that to myself, then calculated how long it would take to finish and thought, "OH MY GOD, AM I NOT EVEN GOING TO FINISH IN UNDER FIVE HOURS?!" Then I realized, "Oh, yeah, you don't actually have a full four miles to go, you should be fine."
Heading towards the finish line, you go down a paved path through/past the cemetery, then you get on gravel again to head back to Five Rocks Ampitheatre. There, there was a steep downhill with a sign warning to beware of loose gravel, and a volunteer warning to be careful. I had another little freak-out moment where I thought, "OH MY GOD, AM I EVEN IN CONTROL OF MY LEGS AT THIS POINT?! WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN?!" But I was fine. Then you have to take a steep uphill back up, which I was not cool with at that point, but again, I was fine.
I finished in 4:55:13, far off of the lofty 4:30:00 goal, but better than my worst time of 4:56:32.
Saturday, July 29, 2023
thoughts on the Barbie movie (some spoilers)
My mom, last weekend on the phone when I mentioned that I had plans to see the Barbie movie: You know, I still have an old Barbie in my hope chest.
Me: You used to let me play with some of your old Barbies.
Her: I let you play with all of them, except her. I didn't want her sitting in a mud hole in the yard with the rest of the Barbies and GI Joes.
Me: Oh, yeah. We used to make a swimming pool for them. And then you would wash them in the sink. We probably called that "going in the hot tub."
Her: Yep. They got the full experience.
I open with this story because one of my favorite parts of the lead-up to the Barbie movie has been reminiscing about Barbies, which I played with with varying degrees of regularity from the time I was three until I was about eleven. Some common things that have come up include that MANY of my friends my age also had Great Shape Barbie (my favorite), who wore a unitard and cool rainbow legwarmers (though I'm pretty sure I lost the legwarmers nearly immediately); it was pretty normal to give your Barbies other names, like Joanne and Shelley, in my case; most everyone had far fewer Kens; and we liked it when we had a Barbie that looked different in some way, like had a different hair color, which was less common in the 1980s than I imagine it is now.
One of my other favorite parts of the lead-up to the Barbie movie is that there has been a lead-up. I used to go to the movies all the time pre-pandemic; since the pandemic, I have been probably fewer than ten times, and when I fell asleep during House of Gucci whenever that came out, I remember thinking to myself, "Maybe I just don't like going to the movies anymore." It's been fun to look forward to going to the movies again. Today, when my friends and I were walking down the hall to the theater, one said, "Just follow the pink!" The theater was packed; probably 98% of the people there were women and girls, and probably 90% of those women and girls were wearing at least some pink. It's fun to have a movie feel like an event that you get your friends together for and even plan what you're going to wear.
I'm not sure if I have anything profound to say about the movie that hasn't been said already, and I won't give a full plot summary since that's also been covered elsewhere. Instead, here are just some random things I liked, in no particular order:
1) Weird Barbie (Kate McKinnon), who is the way she is because she was played with too hard; they show a little girl cutting her hair and drawing on her face with a marker. Yes. I did not do anything like that on purpose, but inevitably, weird stuff just happened. For example, the aforementioned Great Shape Barbie that I liked so much? Well, you know how Barbies had a little ball on the top of their neck that held their head on and made it so that their heads moved? Okay, well, that ball broke off of Great Shape Barbie at some point, after which I had to just shove her head down on her neck, meaning she basically had no visible neck and was shorter than all the other Barbies. I had another one whose leg was constantly coming off and often just got played with with a missing leg. The point is: Weird Barbie was a great idea. I'm sure everyone had at least one Weird Barbie, whether they wanted one or not.
2) Where do I even start with Ryan Gosling as Ken? So, his storyline is that in Barbieland, his job is Beach (not surfer, not lifeguard, just Beach), and he spends most of his time trying to get Barbie's (Margot Robbie's) attention; Barbie seems to like him okay but doesn't take that much of an interest in him. I read an article that said that on average, girls had one Ken for every seven Barbies they owned, and that you may have had a Ken but probably didn't ask for one, which-- yeah. One of my three Kens was a hand-me-down from my mom, and my grandma gave me the other two. It's pretty funny that the movie works that dynamic in. After accompanying Barbie to the Real World, Ken learns about the patriarchy. He likes the part where people respect him just because he's a guy, but doesn't like that "you have to have all these things like 'medical degrees' and 'swimming lessons'." (I don't know if I'm getting that line right verbatim, but Gosling's delivery is SO FUNNY-- I don't think he actually does air quotes, but they are definitely there in his voice). So he goes back to Barbieland and sets up a ridiculous version of the patriarchy. At one point, all of the Kens sing "Push" by Matchbox Twenty. There's a war that devolves into a choreographed dance number. I said afterwards, "I feel like Ryan Gosling has been training his whole life to play this part." He was great.
3) Though I laughed a lot during this movie, I also got teary-eyed a couple of times. The first was during America Ferrerra's speech about all the contradictions inherent in being a woman that everyone has been quoting, and which she delivers even better than I imagined. The second is when Barbie decides she wants to be human and live in the Real World, and Barbie's creator Ruth Handler (Rhea Perlman) takes her hand. Barbie sees flashes of moments of joy from real women's lives, where women are doing things like playing with kids and graduating, but also, for example, getting a strike in bowling and being cheered on by her friends. I don't feel like I can adequately describe how or why it is so moving, but it is.
4) The movie is really well-paced. It has to cover a lot of ground, from establishing what life is like in Barbieland to Barbie and Ken's trip to the Real World to Ken messing up Barbieland with the patriarchy (which, he admits, he pretty much lost interest in once he realized that it wasn't all about horses), and so on. It moves right along; it never really drags, but also never feels rushed.
Anyway: fun summer movie. Go see it with some friends.
Monday, June 19, 2023
Grandma's Marathon Race Reflection: 2023
Sunday, March 26, 2023
Unpacking Daisy Jones and the Six: Daisy and Billy and Camila (Spoilers)
Billy Dunne has this version of himself that he wants to be, which is the version that stays clean and sober and is a good husband to Camila and a good father to Julia. Then Daisy Jones enters his life, first to sing harmony on one song and then as an official member of the band, and she brings out a lot of his insecurities and challenges him in ways that he isn’t used to being challenged. He expects her to just sing that first song, “Look at Us Now (Honeycomb)” as written. She rewrites it, and he hates, and has a hard time admitting, that it’s better her way. At her first live performance with the band, he tells her they’re singing the song fourth; she comes out after the first song, they do the song second, she never leaves the stage, and he hates that the fans don’t want her to. Basically, he hates, and has a hard time admitting, that he needs her more than she needs him professionally. There’s one point where he tries to threaten her that unless she does this or that, she’s not coming on tour, and she says, “There IS no tour without me, you stupid son of a bitch.” He really has a hard time wrapping his head around the fact that he’s not in control with her.
He also has it in his head that as long as he never actually crosses the line of sleeping with her, he’s not doing anything wrong as far as his marriage to Camila is concerned, even though Camila literally tells him otherwise right to his face. Literally. She straight up tells him, “I don’t have to know everything, but if you love her—” He interrupts her to tell her he doesn’t. She says that if he ever does, they’re over. Yet, when Camila is upset after seeing Billy and Daisy having what is clearly an intimate conversation, he is very insistent that all they’ve done is kiss once. He can’t get it through his head that she doesn’t care about that. With both Daisy and Camila, he has these clear ideas about how things are going to be without it ever even occurring to him that they never agreed to those terms or that they might have their own ideas about what they want and what is important to them.
This becomes clearest when, after leaving messages for Camila begging her to give him another chance and come to the fateful Soldier Field show that winds up being their last, a fan buys him a shot, and he takes it. He is drunk and high at the show that night, and he is different with Daisy than he ever has been before, joining her at her microphone, coming so close their lips almost touch and, at one point, putting his arms around her from behind as they sing. When they go backstage before the encore, he begins kissing her, and she responds at first. But she realizes he isn’t being himself and that he’s just reacting to Camila leaving him; he tells her this is who he is: broken. “Let’s be broken together,” he says. Essentially: I couldn’t live up to Camila, so I might as well live down to you. To Daisy’s credit, she doesn’t accept this for herself, and firmly tells him, “I don’t want to be broken.” Daisy told him early on, when they were writing songs for the album together, that he writes from the perspective of who he wants to be, not who he really is. Billy both loves and hates that Daisy sees who he really is, and loves, hates, and is scared of who he is with her.
Bottom line, he puts A LOT on both of the women in his life. But Camila isn’t perfect, and Daisy isn’t “broken.” They’re both real, human people with strengths and weaknesses, and I am really impressed that the show lets them both be that, even if Billy can’t always see them as anything but projections of what he does or doesn’t want to be. I think it’s a huge departure from a lot of music films. I love Walk the Line, for example, but in the context of that movie, June was there to save Johnny Cash, and his first wife, Vivian, was there to hold him back; that made sense in the context of that story, which was told from John’s perspective, and very well may have been how he saw things. Things get more complex when you start showing events from multiple people’s perspectives, though, which we get in Daisy Jones and the Six, where there are no heroes or villains, just a bunch of flawed people trying, and sometimes failing, to do their best; sometimes bringing out the best in each other, and sometimes bringing out the worst.